thanksgiving 2010

happy thanksgiving! :)

Christmas is fast approaching

Christmas is just around the corner...



-Christmas Party

(Pinoy Crew, November 2010)

when the dolls go blue

After going through it all over again, we came to realize that it takes two to fall in love, and the saddest part is that it takes only one to fall out of it. For the one who falls out of love first, it is painless, split-second experience. The other one, who is still madly in love, bears the suffering, loss of self-esteem, sense of abandonment, rejection, loneliness, sleepless nights, and despair. One's emotions swing from anger to rage to self-pity and even to piety overnight.




And as a consolation, we'll be listening to more sappy songs tonight while trying to finish a bottle of vodka in the fridge.

just for laughs

happy halloween!

(up)rooting

i have had several departures and returns in the past few years; each one reminding me of how transient my life. such living arrangement has always been a part of me, and i thought i've already accepted it.

my parents brought me up in an environment where my world is not fixed in one location. they shipped me back and forth in the cusp of two cities; and when they realized it's not enough, they decided to add another on my list of 'hometowns'. they also supported the idea of greater mobility on my part when i decided to pursue a career in the academe, where i'll be forced to wander in different places until the end of my chosen path.

such set-up had been greeted with a welcoming thought until my recent visit to manila. i think seeing my family and friends, and hearing their stories made me rethink of whatever feeling i've had about this transient life. listening to their stories reminded me of how i'm missing out on a lot of things. i have been stripped off the privilege to be with my family, to form a long, deep, and meaningful relationship with my friends, and even to settle down with someone.

moreover, my fragmented self was suddenly highlighted and its ironies further amplified in my trip. i can no longer shift from one part of myself to another in an instant. in fact,  the high-glamour and comfortable lifestyle in manila (and even in the states) are still in me as i am writing this entry in singapore.

obviously, i am once again ranting about the life i've chosen (or was imposed on me). okay, enough... back to my review.

part une

i had a surprise welcome-back treat from j, a, and a.

i was checked-in at a five-star hotel, with a classy western themed dinner and an awesome continental breakfast buffet. then, they also brought me as a vip guest to the hottest clubbing scene in the city, and ended the day with a drinking spree at one of those gay clubs in malate.

the following day, i was welcomed by my parents to our new house and had a fun dinner with my other relatives.

now, i'm sick and trying to hide away from most of my friends.

i do think i'm back in manila.